A Piece Of My Heart...

April 11th, 2005

Am I a Fool To feel this way?...

As I wake up everyday, a feeling of impatience subdue my heart.
Longing for a glance of her sweet smile
Wanting to hear her gentle voice.
Is it wrong for me to feel this way when she still belongs to another?...

My only purpose is to make her happy.
To help her in any way I can.
Although Im shackled by the truth,
I defy the norms and grasp for my goal.

Am I a fool to love her this way?
Knowing my love will never reach her heart.
As I walk to the abyss of hope
Fear of losing her quickly eatsmy soul.
Without a clue on what to do, I just follow what is dictated by my heart.
To reach for something I cannot achieve.
I guess this is a fool's fate.

Like liquor affecting one's mind.
I see vague images of us together.
As I look at them, I cannot deny this warm feeling.
Wishing all of those were true.

Questions offen linger my mind
Will I be happy?
Is this what I want?
confusion takes over and nothing seems clear.
But beneath the midst of it all.
One fact remains... I love her.

There are times that I could just break.
Unable to handle what I feel.
Struggling not to miss her.
But overpowered by what I really feel..

Am I a fool to love her this way?
Knowing that all of these might be in vain.
As I fall into destiny's power
Fear of losing her quickly eatsmy soul.
Not knowing the right direction
I follow a string of love to her heart.
To look for something I know I will never find.
I guess this is a fool's fate.

I stare endlessly at the stars
Waiting for them to give me a sign
Praying that our happy moments together will remain and continue.
As the future never reveals what it has in store.

I just hope that destiny gives me a chance.
If not, let my fate bring me to a situation where i can see her happy.
So that I would not end up the most miserable of all people.
For her, I only want the best.


Am I a fool to love her this way?
Knowing that Im not good enough for her.
As I wonder what awaits me.
The fear of losing her quickly eats my soul.
I let love find the answer for me.
To address a question I can never answer.
I guess this is a fool's fate.
I guess this is my fate.
I guess this is love...

Project_rai

Posted by project_rai at 09:51 AM | 15 P.O.V.'s

March 16th, 2005

Is this farewell to the Raiders?...

Is this farewell to the Raiders...?

It has been more than a year now since I first walked the floors of MSN and entered a group of extradordinary human beings called the Raiders. At first, well, it was nothin special.. a missing leader, crazy team mates that didnt even know at first that I was supposed to be part of their team, and a part of the floor that was the noisiest around. But who would think that the missing leader turned out to be a proud law student who stands behind what he believes in... and those crazy team mates would be a bunch of people that you will love... as for the nosiest area on the floor?... well, the best place to be... who could beat that? Being with the Raiders has taught me SO MUCH... various points of view that gives you a lighter side of things and support that would brighten up your usual angela infested mind. The memories with the Raiders has been the best... from office bloopers, to the never ending laugh trips, not to mention the fun adventures that we had and ofcourse the times we needed to stick together as a team... those memories, for me, are really worth keeping, and will forever be cherished... although its time to say goodbye... and there's a big possibility that we wont have the same experiences as before... just want you all to know that im just a text, email, IM, or phone call away. This team isnt just a team for me anymore... its just like our own little crazy family. And of course, any family, big or small, is so hard to leave. And with this thought in mind, i just wanted to say a little something to all of you guys...

[1] Boss Lennard
 - Boss, thanks for the advices. Kahit minsan hindi gumagana kay Angela, eh I still learned alot. Astigin eh!
 - Best wishes for you, dianne and of course your kids.
[2] Tibo
 - Pare, thanks for giving me another perspective on things. Sayo ko nakita yung maging tunay na responsible.
 - partner in "management work" - AUX 9 for life!
 - as for your love life pare, dadating rin yan. dont rush things and if ever there are times na madedepress ka because of that, eh.. dont bother at all!!! all will come in time.
[3] Sim
 - Hmm... Sim... GIGOLO? natuto ba akong sumayaw sayo?.. hehehe! Sim, sayo ko natutunan yung pagiging down to earth. although madalas kang feeling... eh I think I know whats truly your attitude. believe it or not, but its actually cool. once you think about it ng mga 1000 times! hahaha!
 - ikaw rin! yung love life mo?.. ewan! hehehe! ayaw magpakilala ng gf. pero, again, dont rush things, dadating rin yan. - yun oh! may matrona! hahaha!
[4] Jed
 - Pare, thanks for being my Kaclick! hehehe! pucha kc yan si bossing eh.
 - tol, take good care of Mina. you're really lucky makakita ng taong mamahalin ka kahit lagi ka nagbubuntong hininga! hehehe! joke! pero seroiusly, i admire your self control, kahit alam ko naman na laki na ng chance lumabas yang inner you. (TSK TSK... wawang Mina...) hehehe! anyway, only comment i could give you is to start thinking of the future na pare, para matuloy yang plans mo after 2 yrs. wag mo kaming kalimutang invite!
[5] Mark
 - Pare, well, sayo ka naman natutunan ang maging... umm... hmm... ano nga ba? hehehe! joke! pare, sayo ko naman nakita yung pagiging dreamer.. yung parang alam mo na yung gusto mo. and you find ways na para mangyari yun. although dami talagang hindrance sa buhay, sa tingin ko kaya mo yan. tyaga lang yan! kasama mo naman si charlene and based on what i know. i can only wish the best para sainyo.
[6] Roy
 - Pare, masasabi ko lang eh kailangan mo na talaga ng inspiration. kaya ka lagi antok eh kc la kang inspiration... puro perspiration... dyan kay Maan.
 - Sa totoo lang roy, you have lots of potential, just find a way of using that stored info. Good luck sa buhay pare!
[7] IC
 - It's like a paranoid looking over my back... hehehe!
 - Tol, Good luck nalang sa pagiging business man!
 - Umm.. yung sainyo ni Aion, well, you still have a lot of options kc bata pa kayo and sa totoo lang, you havent experienced life that much yet. basta think straight! ikaw bahala, baka matulad.. hahaha! last eh tungkol sa mga sakit mo, wag ka magpapatalo, you'll never know what lies ahead kaya just keep on fighting.
[8] Maan
 - dayang dayang... papiri..
 - miss, thanks for being a good friend. although ewan ko ba kung ano malaki mong problema sakin at lakas mong mangasar.. eh you still listen and give relevant advices.
 - Good luck sa studies mo! lam mo, never think what others say. basta as long as tama ginagawa mo, just stay true.. speaking of being true, wag naman masyado kc napaparami ka nga yosi eh talagang el nino aabutin mo nyan! Good luck sa relationship nyo ni Bitoy and of course i wish you the best.
[9] Trisha
 - lam mo trish, ang gustong gusto ko sayo eh wala kang keme. kahit na aminadong kikay.
 - natutuwa ako sainyo ni roi and i really hope the best for you two!
 - sana nga makahanap kayo ng magandang work sa singapore!
 - sa totoo lang, dami ko rin utang na loob sayo noh. thanks for everything.
 - thanks rin kay roi! bagay kayong dalawa! hehehe!
[10] May
 - may, stay as strong as you are.
 - thanks for giving me a close in sight of angela's way of thinking.
 - Good luck sainyo ni edward, and dont worry kung makakita ng totoong hubog nga babae si edward, eh total mahal ka naman yata yun. God bless.

My friends I know that it looks like that we're parting ways and its farewell already, but, just think of it as a sched where we do not see each other. a sched that although seperates us all, we still remain to be Raiders no matter what. hope to keep hearing from you guys! Again, the time that i've spent with you guys will always be treasured in my heart. Take care and God bless. I'm gonna miss you all SOOOO MUCH!


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